2 Months

Some one is super happy and excited to be 2 months old!

(Mismatched socks...because if you've ever washed baby socks. You'd understand)

Our little turkey. Celebrated her first Thanksgiving 

With her cousin who is just three weeks younger than her. They are seriously adorable. 

Getting in the Christmas spirit in her reindeer jammies 

"Helping" mommy with Christmas gifts

She just adores her daddy

These past two months have been filled with so much love and joy. And of course have flown by. It's weird because two months have gone by so fast but at the same time it doesn't seem like that long at all. 

I'm just amazed every day with this little girl. She may be only two months but she definitely is a baby who likes to be on the go. Our daily routine consists of at least one outing. I've been to Target so much recently, and have spent way to much money because um how am I supposed to avoid her clothes? As long as we go out she is really content and will take a nice long nap when we get home. Makes us both happy. I definitely have the cutest shopping buddy! 

Exactly two months ago today, after 28 hours of the worst pain I have ever experienced. This little princess arrived into the world and changed my life. I will never forget that day or everything I went through. But I'd do it all again for her. Being her mommy is the greatest blessing. 

2 months old

December 16th, 2015

Weight: 9-9.5 pounds. She's such a little girl. But she's defiantly getting some chunk and has the cutest little rolls. 

Height: 21 3/4 in

Eye Color: Blue! Over the past month they have been getting more blue and everyone keeps saying they'll be blue. And the doctor who delivered her said she's going to have blue eyes! Neither Caleb or I have blue eyes but they do run in both our families. 

Hair Color: Light brown/blonde 

Diaper Size: Size 1!

Clothes Size: Some of her newborn clothes still fit but others are to small. But she's fitting into more of her 0-3 months

Sleep: During the day maybe 2 hours. But if we go somewhere she takes a longer nap. She loves car rides. Night time...she hasn't gotten on any schedule yet. 

Eating: Every 2-3 hours during the day. At night she can sometimes go for four hours. But she's constantly growing still so I don't expect her to have any routine yet. She eats when she's hungry. Even if it might have been an hour ago. 

Likes: Bathtime is her favorite! Also car rides and going places. She is mesmerized by the Christmas tree. She just loves looking all around. She just smiles so much when she's talked to. Also she has mastered the squeal. It's pretty adorable. Loves to sleep on mine or Caleb's chest and be all snuggled.
Dislikes: Hates going to sleep. She will fight it so much. Seriously little girl, you're going to adore sleep one day...

Lately she has been throwing a royal fit when she gets dressed.
Milestones: She ALMOST rolled over! She just couldn't quite get those legs to move. But I think soon she'll be. She's really starting to focus on objects and tries to reach for them. She's so active already and just seems so curious about the world around her.
Firsts: I started work, so this is the first time she's been away from me. I don't know who is more upset, me or her? I'm so grateful that I only have to work part time so I don't have to be away from her to long. She also calmed down and fell asleep on her daddy for the first time. Usually she only wants me to so I'm glad she is learning that she can be comforted by her daddy. Ellie also celebrated her first Thanksgiving. She ate and slept like most people do on Thanksgiving 😉
Personality: She is such a sweetheart! I can't wait to see how her personality develops. 

I Wasn't Prepared For....

When you're pregnant you get told a lot of advice, stories, dos, and don'ts. Many people will tell you about their pregnancy and tell you to prepare for certain stages. Like prepare to completely break down when your shirts become belly shirts and your jeans don't go past your hips. Or to prepare for the crazy cravings that hit and you make your husband run to the store after a long day at work. You read all the books, articles, and download a hundred different pregnancy apps all to prepare you for what's ahead. 

I was prepared for every stage of pregnancy. 

Then the closer you get to your due date you'll start to prepare for labor. You'll decorate the nursery, plan baby's coming home outfit, and pack your hospital bag. You'll prepare for labor and delivery by taking a childbirth class and reading articles online. Or you'll watch birth videos on YouTube. 

I was prepared (as much as I could be) to give birth. 

But what I wasn't prepared for was for everything that happens after pregnancy. 

I wasn't prepared to feel such a deep love for someone I didn't even know. Or to shed so many tears. I wasn't prepared to fall even more in love with my husband by watching him turn into a father. Or to cry just by watching him take a million pictures because he just can't get enough of his little girl. I wasn't prepared to feel such a strong sense of being a mama bear. I do everything in my willpower to protect my baby and to keep her safe. 

I wasn't prepared for all the happy dances my husband and I would do over her little burps and for everytime there's a poopy diaper. Or saying bless you everytime we hear a little sneeze. I wasn't prepared for all of the lack of sleep but in those quiet hours of the night are times I cherish because I know one day will come when I won't be awoken and needed at night. 

I wasn't prepared to put someone else's needs before mine so much that I'll forget to eat but it doesn't matter as long as she is happy and taken care of. 

I wasn't prepared to feel a even more deeper connection with my husband as we both learn how to be parents and to figure things out together. Or that my love only grows stronger for him as he gently kisses her forehead everytime he holds her. 

I wasn't prepared to have to hold myself together watching someone prick her foot and squeeze blood out of it to check her jaundice levels every week. But I had to be strong for her because I knew she needed her momma for comfort. 

I wasn't prepared for all the struggles breastfeeding would bring. All the pain I knew. But I wasn't prepared for her to develop breastfeeding jaundice and to be losing weight, and having a doctor basically tell me I'm a horrible mom because it just seemed like she wasn't getting enough to eat. I was told to supplement countless times. Something in me just didn't feel right about formula and I knew breastmilk is the best thing for her.  So I didn't give up. And now her jaundice is almost gone and she's gaining weight. Newborn diapers are a thing of the past and she's now in 0-3 months clothes. 

I wasn't prepared for little eyes to look up at me and smile making my heart just explode. And to shed even more tears seeing her grow up right before my eyes. Or to just stare at her in awe of just how beautiful she is. 

I wasn't prepared for what motherhood would bring. Of course I have wanted to be a mom, probably my whole life. But there aren't any books or apps that prepare you for motherhood. It's just something you learn along the way.

God gave me his greatest gift, and I will always feel incredibly blessed that he chose me to be her mom. And I promise to my daughter that I'll be the best mom to her. 

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One Month

One month! 

How do I have a one month old already?! Time has been flying...didn't I say that a lot when I was pregnant? 

Being a mom is one of the most exhausting, frustrating, and hardest jobs. But it's even more amazing, rewarding, and most joyous. My daughter brings so much joy to my life. Having a baby is such a blessing. It's such an incredible feeling looking down at her and knowing that just 10 months ago she was no bigger than a poppyseed and now she's here in my arms. 

So how has Ellie been?! I decided to continue updates but not of me anymore. I'll be doing monthly updates of her! She's constantly growing and I wanted a way to document(and remember) things. So here's her one month update! 

1 Month

Weight: 7 lbs 8 oz is what she weighed at the doctors. 

Height: 21 3/4 in

Eye Color: Blue gray. But I know they'll change 

Hair Color: Light brown

Diaper Size: Newborn but even those can be a little big depending on the brand. I love the honest company diapers but they seem to run big. 

Clothes Size: Newborn still. I've had to buy more because most of the outfits are 0-3 months and she swims in them still. 

Sleep: Oh little girl, she will sleep amazing if me or her daddy is holding her. But as soon as we put her down she wakes up. We have a little bassinet in our room to keep her close and she just doesn't like it. So far she will sleep 2 hours in it. Hopefully here soon she gets used to it because I'd love longer sleep stretches. 

Eating: Every 2-3 hours during the day. At night she can sometimes go for four hours but that's still rare. She has days where she will want to eat every single hour. You'd think she would be 10lbs with how much she eats. 

Likes: Eating. She would probably just eat constantly if I let her. She loves music, when she fusses we will put music on and she'll get quiet to listen. Loves bathtime. Loves to lay in daddy's lap when he's playing video games. Sleeping cuddled up in a warm blanket close to us, it's my favorite too! Nothing like having a cuddly warm baby. She loves car rides and target trips. 
Dislikes: Getting her diaper changed. Hates it. And being naked in general. Also she hates to be moved if she's comfortable. And really throws a fit if mommy is taking to long to feed her. 
Milestones: She's already holding her head up so much. I've gotten a few smiles and one or two coos. Of course it could be gas. But I'll take it! 
Firsts: She had her first bath in her tub at 2 weeks old. It was hard at first because her daddy has to hold her since she's so little. First target trip when she was just a week old. We took her on her first walk last week since the weather here was unusually warm. She lasted about 5 minutes. 
Personality: Even for being a month old. She already has a tiny personality. But I know it's only going to grow and I'm so excited to see her develop one. 

❤️

I got the outline from this gorgeous momma' blog: http://lauraplusco.blogspot.com/2015/10/emma-1-month.html?m=1

Definitely check out her blog. Her little girl is so adorable!